Get over them already!(or on second thought, maybe not)

Hi everyone, it's definitely been awhile! I've been swamped the last few weeks, but now I finally have some time. Enjoy!

Heartbreak is something in life that happens to just about everyone. There's always that other person who just doesn't feel the same way.  Or maybe it's your significant other that breaks up with you for what ever reason. Even breaking up with someone isn't easy. What ever it is, it's not something that's fun to deal with. However, it's usually the getting over someone part of everything that just plain sucks. And that's what i'm writing about today. As someone who knows this feeling all too well, I hope I can help someone out.

Coldplay put it best in "The Scientist"

Nobody said it was easy
Oh, it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard
I'm going back to the start

When heartbreak happens, our first instinct tends to be to try to move on as quickly as we can. People often do this in a number of ways. We try to find another man/woman and throw ourselves at them as fast as possible. We try to tell ourselves the person we're trying to get over never meant anything to us in the first place. We look at all there flaws. We try to convince ourselves how much better our lives are without them. And of course, we try to convince ourselves out of nowhere that we are over them.

While there is always an exception or two, doing those things I listed above don't work in the long run at all. Now granted, they may be a temporary fix. But they never last. These things usually fade, and your stuck in the same boat as before. So now what?

You need to let yourself be not over them for awhile

Yes, you read that right. I"m not saying try to go after this person again/ get them back. I'm saying just accept the fact that your a bit heartbroken, not over someone, and that it's going to take a while. These kind of things take some time.

Trust me on this one.

I tried to get over the same girl for years. I tried everything I mentioned above. But that's the problem, I was trying. Over the course of the summer this year, I stopped trying and just let it happen. And i'll be darned, it worked. I can honestly say that i'm over that person, and it was by God's doing and timing, not mine, that it was able to happen. Just stop trying , let the Big Guy upstairs do his thing, and all will work itself out.

Hope you enjoyed! Here's a few quick blurbs:

Go watch 500 Days of Summer if you haven't seen it. It goes along perfectly with what I just wrote. You will enjoy the movie, guarenteed.

As I wrote this, I decided to listen to a new band! Kim recommended that I listen to Mumford and Sons, and I must say I quite enjoyed what I heard of them! I really liked "Winter Winds" especially. I need to check out more of them.

Props to Joey Himmelberg for letting me tag along to the VIkes game on sunday, It was a blast!

Romans 12 is awsome, so much wisdom. Read it if you get the chance, you won't regret it!

Oh, and i'm throwing a Halloween party at my house in 2 weeks, and you should all come. It wil be LEGENDARY!

TTFN, ta ta for now!

The Ghost of Midnight

Here is a poem I wrote about 6 months ago. I was just re reading it, and thought I would post it again. Let me know what you think, as alot of this poem can be left up to interpretation.


It’s just another late night,
as I walk through the streets
of a sprawling metropolis.

But then, something catches my eye,
it seemed like an apparition,
perhaps a ghost?
But I know what I saw,
it has to be real!
I will chase it, no matter the cost!

So I ran after it at full speed.
I have to see it, I just have to!
I searched all over the town,
but I have found nothing.
Perhaps my eyes deceived me,
maybe I should stop this pursuit.?

But suddenly, I was blinded
by a radiant white light.
That had to be it,
I knew it was real!
So I ran off again,
stopping for nothing.

Yet, I still cannot find it.
It is as if this ghost
was just out of my reach
Alas, I grow tired of this.
Perhaps my brain deceived me?
I know I cannot keep this up.

But then, a lamp flickered,
this had to be the ghost’s doing.
Perhaps this light had represented
my hope of finding this ghost?
I continued my pursuit,
even as I grew weary.

I ran after the captivating ghost,
more swiftly than ever before
This ghost had to be true,
this time, it would be mine!
I believe that something like this,
just has to be real,
Or does it?
Maybe this ghost is just
a figment of my imagination,
born of inner feelings.
Perhaps it has been my heart
that has deceived me all along?

I cannot continue this.
My heart and my soul
cannot withstand this any more.
I must stop now,
rest is very needed.
My whole being is exhausted.

It seems like in this time
I’ve spent chasing this ghost,
three years has past.
I have spent so much time
chasing down this ever elusive
Ghost of Midnight.

I know I will never find this ghost
Because deep down, I know the truth:
There was never any ghost at all.

Ryan's rediculously happy playlist!

Hey people who actually take the time to read this! I just thought I would share my favorite playlist with you. These songs all put me in a great mood, so I piled them together. Check them out, and I hope they make you happy!

Alter Bridge-Down to my Last

Barenaked Ladies-Falling for the First time

Black Eyed Peas- I Gotta Feeling

Bowling For Soup- Almost

The Calling- Our Lives

Counting Crows-Accidentally in Love

David Cook-Time of My Life

Earth, Wind and Fire- September

The Fray- She Is

Gavin Degraw-Chariot

Gavin Degraw-Crush

Hall and Oates- You make My Dreams come true

Howie Day-Collide

Jack Johnson-Upside Down

John Mayer-No Such Thing

Journey-Any Way You want it

Matchbox Twenty-Black and White People

Needtobreathe-Washed by the Water

Needtobreathe- Something Beautiful

Third Eye Blind-Semi Charmed Life

Van Morrison- Moondance

There you go. Have a great week all :)!

Who are you?

Hello all, it's currently 1 in the morning on a Saturday night. So here we go!


Let me ask you a question.  Have you ever thought about who you really are? I mean, seriously thought about who you are. If you have, then great! If not, you really should, and don't be surprised if your world is rocked.


After a pretty rough year last year, I was in a a vulnerable place entering this summer. I realized that I had absolutely no idea who the heck I was. I had tried so hard to find myself in other people that I had all but forgotten about myself. I had no idea what I wanted from out of myself or a relationship, I had no idea what I stood for, and I had no idea where I was headed in life. So I just had to ask myself one question.

Just who the heck am I?

Slowly throughout the summer, I began to rediscover everything about myself. I realized that a lot of things I thought I was for the last few years wasn't me at all. I wasn't some moping sad sack always complaining about his girl problems. I wasn't some loser that everyone felt sorry for. I realized that I was a heck of a lot cooler than I gave myself credit for.

These were just a few things I realized. I won't bore you to death with the rest of them. But by the end of the summer, I had a pretty good sense of who I was. I knew who Ryan Hoyt was. Not who I was in someone else, just me. And I can say it's changed me for the better. I am much happier lately than i've been in a long time. By finding out who I really was, I believe I can move into the future better.

And you know what else I realized? God made me to be pretty darn awsome. For so long I've been crippled by low self-esteem, but that changed too. By finding myself, I realized that i'm actually prety cool. Not to sound like an arrogant D-bag or anything, but God made me great. And to Him I give all the glory.

So go and ask yourself, who am I? You might be surprised by what you find. And if you don't like it, you have the power to change it. You'll be shocked at what a little self examination can do for you.

Seriously, try it sometime, you won't regret it!


I hope somewhere in this schpeel I made sense. Again, it's late at night, but I just wanted to say that.

I might not update the blog this week, I've got a crap ton of homework and testes to take care of, but i'll try.

Anywhoo, I need to go to bed. I have to get up at 7:30 to go to a funeral breakfast with my dad. Oh, and let me know what you think of this little blog thing, I always appreciate feedback!

TTFN, Ta Ta For Now.

I've never regretted loving, not even once

First of all, before I say anything, listen to this song.
Daughtry-September
　
When I listen to this song, I immediately think of the confusing thing known as love. More so, a failed relationship and/ or love interest that has come and gone. He spends a majority of time in the verse seemingly
wondering if all this trouble he went through was worth it. Reflecting on these things seems to be the primary focus of the song. However, there is one line that really gets me, and is primarily what I am writing about. The line is at the end of the chorus:

Reflecting now on how things could’ve been
It was worth it in the end

As a self-admitted hopeless romantic, I have had a tendancy to get burned by love's flame.  It's mostly just classic cases of "she just doesn't feel the same way'". And i'm often left wondering if it was worth it. This especially rang true for me in the last few months. I won't say who this girl is, but those of you who know me will know.

I had felt very strongly about this girl for years. And time and time again, I could never say the way I felt. This tore me up over and over again. This especially got to me when she recently  started dating someone else(every guy knows this feeling). They say time heals all wounds though, and I will vouch for that. Time, friends, and a much needed vacation to NYC helped me get over it. I still wondered though, "was it worth it"? Years of pining after the same girl only to come up with nothing, was it worth it? I wrestled with this for weeks. This changed one day.

I was having a textversation(hey look, I made a new word!) with a good friend of mine. It was then she gave me told me something I'll never forget. She said "I've never regretted loving someone, not even once." That struck me. After thinking about this quote and my particular situation, I knew exactly how I felt.

In the end, it was all worth it.

Yeah, I didn't get a relationship out of it like I hoped for. But I came up far from empty handed. I will always have alot of happy memories I won't soon forget. I also learned many life lessons that I will cary forever. God, in all his goodness, I believe used this expereience to mold me into the man he wants me to be. This includes molding me into the man I need to be to meet my wife and eventually be a good husband and father.
So I will continue to love. Yeah, I might get burned. But that's a risk i'll gladly take. And if that does happen, I'll remember one thing:

I've never regretted loving anybody, no, not even once.

I just can't watch sports like I used to.

Hello all! Time for another blog, this one is about sports. I will hardly ever write about sports, as there are much more important things in life. However, I just felt like I really needed to say this. Enjoy, and Vikings fans, please don't hate me.

Before I start off this rant, lets flash back, shall we?

I've been exposed to sports since I was a baby, it's in my family. Heck, my great great uncle Waite pitched for the Yankees in the 20's and made the hall of fame. Some of my best memories are watching sports with my dad and Grandpa. But when I was 12, I started to get really into football. And you guessed it, my favorite team was the Minnesota Vikings. I would spend my Sunday's watching them play, and frequently yelling at the tv, much to the annoyence of my mom. I lived or died by them, nothing put me in a bad mood like the Vikings losing. This went on for a long time.

And then, last year happened. It was a magical year for the Vikings, and I truly thought they were going to win it all. But then they played the Saints in the NFC title game, and anyone reading this knows what happened. I alternated screaming at the tv, and being sad and remorseful. I was so devasted that I buzzed my long hair at the time to try to make myself feel better (which turned out well, I looked much better with shorter hair.) After moping about the game for a month, I realized how pathetic it was. My revelation went something like this.

I mean seriously! It's just a freakin sports game, why do I give a crap if they win or lose. It's not going to affect me personally, so why am I acting like the Vikings losing is the end of the world. I'm done living or dying by the Vikings, I can't do this anymore!

I told my Uncle Jim this, and he just nodded his head and said "Now you know how I felt after the 1998 NFC Title game."

And this brings me to today. As the Vikings blew another big game by shooting themselves in the foot again(shocking, I know), I glanced across Facebook. I saw people complaing about the Vikings starting 0-2 like it was the Apocalypse. I wondered "How did I ever do this to myself for all those years?"

So there it is, that's how I feel. I'm done living and dying by the Vikings and any other sports teams in general (Yes, this includes my beloved New York Yankees). I'll still watch them, heck i'll still root for them. But sports just don't seem very important to me anymore. They will just be a hobby from now on, not something my life revolves around. Call me a whiner, bandwagon fan, Haterade drinker, your grandmother, I really could care less. I'm just done with.

Because at the end of the day, it's all just a game anyways.

A few other quick blips!:

How I Met Your Mother season 6 premiers tomorrow, I CAN'T WAIT!

Halo Reach is awsome!

Humans vs. Zombies was a phenomenal experience, I may write onit!

If you haven't heard it, please listen to the song September by Daughtry. It's a phenomenal song that really got me thinking. I will definitely be writing soon on this song and what I got out of it in regards to love.

Shalom,
Ryan

Intro schpeel

Well hi everybody, and welcome to my blog. For those who are actually reading this, thank you! I decided to start a blog, because i generally have a lot to say on just about everything! I will update twice a week hopefully, but no guarantees!

Anywhoo, for those who don't already know, heres me in a nutshell of 15 things!

Born and raised in Champlin, MN

I love my family, and am very close with them

I am a sinner, who was saved at the age of 15 by the grace of a Wonderful God!

I talk, alot. Like nonstop. If I annoy you, please tell me to stop. Otherwise I will probs just keep talking

My friends mean the the world to me. I would do just about anything for them

I am hyper-competitive. I cannot stand losing at anything

I LOVE MUSIC! I would go insane without it

I played Bass in the band King's Ace for 5 years, so many good times!

I love my life at Northwestern College. I am blessed by so many people there

I am a hopeless romantic. It is both frustrating and wonderful at the same time

I enjoy things like Tv, movies, and games because they offfer me a nice little break from reality

I love to dance! I'm not too good, but I still have a blast

I highly enjoy writing poetry and songs. I might post one if I really like it

I always overanalyze everything, without taking any action. It's a wee bit annoyting

And # 15: I absolutely cannot wait until the day when I get to become a lecensed social studies teacher!!!!!!

Welp, there you have it. If you are somehow still reading this, I give you mad props. Untill next time!